3:00 snapshot #1156

[urbpan]

The view from the kitchen window on xmas day 2012. Alex came over around mid-day, and when the snapshot alarm went off she was out getting Chinese food. I spent most of the day from 1-5 standing by the fire and a little bit playing with dogs. I felt pretty gloomy most of the day--I always want December 25th to be an anti-celebration, reveling in not belonging, but it's hard to pull off unless you have others who want to indulge those feelings with you. Alexis was gloomy too, but I think she was partly preoccupied with the puppy's health issue, and partly in a deep funk about the weather.

Alex was good company even though she was feeling a little under the weather herself. Jim and Turtle played most of the day, and the big dogs joined in but wimped out of the cold pretty quick.

I called my dad, who was not traveling on xmas for the first time in 15 years, and he seemed okay with being home alone. His plan for the day was to call all his relatives.



I was inordinately pleased with myself for having spent much of the previous half day preparing firewood and storing it in the shed to keep it dry. The gloom broke after dark, Alexis and I cuddled and watched John Carter. This weekend we will probably do some kind of xmas thing with the Vermont family, and my dad may come along too if the weather isn't too shitty.

Comments

[roaming.livejournal.com]

but. . . if you have others who want to indulge in the revelry of "not belonging," then you all automatically belong in that cohort/cadre/group/pity party, yes?

Odd, I don't think of you as not belonging. I guess you present differently. At least on paper.

I used to not belong for a very long time. Then I married a guy who has an awesome family, and now it feels great to have a place where I'm welcome. Even though I still Bah Humbug! the entire holly daze craziness.

[urbpan.livejournal.com]

I do know a few people that don't celebrate, but no one that wants to "indulge in the revelry" quite like I do. The people I know that don't celebrate don't really amount to a community--we could, with some effort I suppose. One friend invites us to "Jewish Xmas" where she goes to a big chinese restaurant and a movie, for example. It may be more about being homebodies than not celebrating anything.

[roaming.livejournal.com]

hmmmm, wondering how all us homebodies could become a community. Skype? Hidden cameracam? ;-P

[urbpan.livejournal.com]

Not sure about being on camera. Maybe some system of interconnected blogs...